In the Silence Of the Night

I tend to find serenity and peace in the dark hours of the night. There is just something about knowing that all is still around you. You know how in movies they have those scenes where everything just stops except the main character? That is how I feel while I sit in my room wide awake while the world around me just seems to stop. The darkness settles in, the world seems peaceful, and maybe just for a moment all my worries and problems just fade. It's always quiet and I like that. I could sit there all night and just listen to the sound of nothing. The sound of darkness. I usually get lost within the sounds I don't hear because from the moment my alarm goes off in the morning until I lay my head down for bed, I am engulfed in the constant pounding of voices, music, traffic, my own thoughts, and so much more that I don't notice.
You know how when you have your headphones in and just for a split second in between songs there is that moment of silence because the headphones are blocking out the sounds around you? Maybe it is just a muffled sound of the things around you, but even then the silence is there, you just have to listen. The next song starts playing and you forget that there was a moment of silence. Sometimes I take a deep breath in between the songs during the silence or muffles and it feels like I am starting over new. Like I am detoxing my body of all the things and the sounds that are drowning me.
I don't always have time to detox and sometimes I watch Netflix instead of sitting in the silence. There is nothing wrong with that. The world is a busy place and there are only so many hours in a day. Sometimes the noises never go away and after days, weeks, even months have gone by I start to miss the stillness. I often wish my life was like a movie so that the world around me could stand still.
To much silence could drive a person mad. I think that is why the silence is so unique and precious to me. I don't mind the voices, music, traffic, or my own thoughts, I enjoy them most days. It is only when they become too much and too overpowering that I crave the silence, the stillness, along with the sound of nothing. The dark hours of the night are when I tend to find my serenity. My peace. My hope. In the dark hours of the night I find me.